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In forward extension pose a Lute appears.



Base of strings is Sacrum

Bridges are Vertebrae

Strings are Spinal column

attached to Neck

Knobs are Arms and Legs


Work on knobs

Strings grow neither tight nor loose

Play beautiful vibration


Life energy flows along



Inspired by Mr. B.K.S.Iyengar Astadala Yogamala Vinadana Namaste

‘It’s too sweet. They might add syrup.’ I complained.

‘So you might squeeze by yourself.’ My friend suggested adding

‘That is not lot of work.’ Really?


Cut watermelon into triangle with skin kept on.

Place colander on a bowl. Hold the skin, scrape watermelon flesh over the colander.

Seeds are left. Pour red water into a glass. Might add a little bit salt.


It has gentle sweetness. Sweeter than flesh.

My doubt was melted down.

Magical fresh red water run though throat. Refresh hot day.


I suffer for unevenness, lost my center.

A moment of silence. Rolfer answered to me

One day you will find your integration.



I could’t believe him.


With implant in left chest,

body got stiff left side and hyper-mobile right side.

Teacher said I stood not straight.

Though my nerve said it was straight.

I confused, didn’t know where center was.



Sit in meditation

Muscles are still in balance.

Bones are still in unti-gravity.

Breath are in calmness.

Find a slight light of the center, my integration.


‘How big implant do you want?’

When my doctor asked me in consultation of breast cancer surgery, I had no idea.


There were a lots of choice in treatment. I needed to make decisions many times.

In limited time. By myself.

That was the hardest part of my treatment period.


Partial or Mastectomy.

Up to the stage of tumor. Think about the cut size which includes flesh around the tumor. How many places and where?

Imagine the breast shape after.

Might think about keeping nipple or not.


If mastectomy, No-implant or Reconstruction.

No-implant is lesser stress in body, if it is acceptable in mind.


If reconstruction, Immediately or Later.

Immediately might be lesser stress in mind.

Or Later, might be able to see your needs more exactly. Because body tends to change shape in stressed condition.


Fill with Own flesh or Implant

With Own flesh might get more natural shape and softness, but need longer time to heal.


If Implant, Size, Shape, Material.

Hard and big implant might make nicer looking. But because it is inserted behind chest muscles, might brings pain and inward rotated shoulder.

Not all the type of implant might be available in the hospital. I found a type (large diameter and low projection for looking naturally) is only available in Japan.


My choice was small soft implant in immediate reconstruction for earlier recover, lesser stress in muscle as a yogi.


Think about life. What is most important.

Choose thoughtfully. Make own stable decision. No regret.

Then let go in the hands of destiny.


Medication progress everyday. I did in 2009. Please consult to your doctor and producing implant companies.

I wish your good luck and wise decisions.
































‘You are always smiling when you practice. Looks so happy.’

My friend said to me.

Seiji Ozawa

Last night I saw Mr. Seiji Ozawa interview.

He finished esophageal cancer treatments, is coming back his work, conductor.

He said he is blissful when he is with music.

He is in pure joy when he works with others.


I understand.

So I smile.


In Iyengar yoga body-alignment is described a lot.


Intermediate students,who start remembering ‘correct’ alignment, tends to come to poke other’s ‘mistake’.

Yes. They do it by kindness, sometimes help others.

Sometimes their ‘correction’ comes from their judgment by told-knowledge.


Even though it’s difficult to see from outside

I have one side implant behind chest muscles, which go longer way than another,

brings asymmetry in body and inner sensations.

I need to do some yoga poses in different way.

Even it looks not ‘correct’.



In Mr.Peter Scott‘s workshop

I was hesitate to do in ‘different’ way.

He looked and permitted me to do without being told my condition.

I was surprised and impressed

his judgment from observation.


No need to force ourselves into ‘correctness’

Find ‘rightness’ at our center.


Namaste Peter-ji.

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